killers.

tuesday was a long day for me.
8:30 i had an orientation which lasted about 2 hours... during the orientation traeh kept kicking and squirming around and hurting everything in between my legs including my thighs ahaha.
went straight to my NST appointment after and was on the monitor for more than an hour. apparently traeh kept moving around and his heart rate never like go down which concerned all the doctors and nurses. something about its supposed to be below 160 or average 160 but he was at 190+
so they sent me to L&D (labor & delivery) to be hooked up to the monitor longer. i snuck down to the cafeteria before i went there cuz i was starving to death. had a pizza and then went back to L&D. after i ate traeh just stop squirming around and his heart rate went down. im sure he was just hungry hahaha thats why.
but they still had me stay for an hour, gown on and everything.
i was falling asleep in that room.
called my cousin and mom dem and my mom was getting all excited and kept saying she was gonna come down and i kept telling her no need cuz theyre just monitoring and they havent checked if i dilated or not.
after the L&D i went up to kimotos office. he wasnt even in cuz he was delivering a baby so i was waiting in there for almost ever!
when he finally seen me he checked and im 2 cm dilated.
he said if traehs heart rate keeps jumping up and down then hes gonna induce me early.
or if i dont give birth by the 4th im scheduled to come in on the 10th (moms bday) to induce my labor.
i hope i dont have to wait that long.

38 weeks pregnant

so i went to my NST appointment yesterday, and found out a lot of great news and shocking ones too!
as i was laying there tryna feel each kick, chelle arnold and mikaeighla walked in and she showed me the highlight of my day haha.
i hope its a boy this time so that traehston can have a buddy to play with :)
now he officially has 2 cousins yay.
anywho. went up to kimotos right after and it took hella long for him to see me cuz something about he had an emergency c-section the day before and all his appointments had to reschedule.
i hate when he checks me every week. he always laughs and teases me cuz i whine and squirm so much when hes pushing in against my cervix. ugh. he tells me i have to massage my vagina more so it doesnt hurt haha.
whatevers, well i started bleeding after that check up.
traehston finally flipped over and his head is down, so he rescheduled my NST appointment on friday from 10 am to 2 pm so that i can get another ultrasound to check how much TKs grown.
gahssssshhh im due in less than 2 weeks its so exciting.
last night i had braxton hicks omfg they are not pleasant lemme tell yeah that.
i had to sit on the toilet more than 5 times in less than an hour because it felt like i had to take a shit. but it was just contractions. first time i felt those kind of contractions. they were like the worst menstrual cramps you can ever imagine. ugh....

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