♥ 4 A Lifetime

“Any time you sincerely want to make a change, the first thing you must do is to raise your standards. When people ask me what really changed my life eight years ago, I tell them that absolutely the most important thing was changing what I demanded of myself. I wrote down all the things I would no longer accept in my life, all the things I would no longer tolerate, and all the things that I aspired to becoming. ”

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Addiction

karaoke tuesdays? lol today was pretty fun. spent time with dahli annie mike n david. did a little shopping at alamoana... came home and sang some karaoke with the in-laws lol.

cant sleep tonight.
too much on my mind.
the night was going so smoothly until i had to get all nosey and look through normans phone.
so he has this problem with gambling, and im now im affraid something's up.

i read one of his text messages from a mainland number that always texts him about football picks. as much as i dont like it, nothing i can say can make him stop what hes doing. he needs to learn on his own. well anyways back to what i was saying... this specific text made me scared for his life. its one thing to gamble with people here in hawaii, its another to gamble with outside people from another state that you DONT even know. for all i know he could be some psycho killer or something.
well, i know my babe's having financial issues, and im right here beside him trying to help him in any way i can..
i mean come on.... i already gave up my car for him... as much as i didnt want to...
i work too, i have things to do... but, i love him and ill do whatever i can for him.

i just dont want him to get into anymore trouble than he already is.
it already seems like this guy texting him is threatening.

UGH! whats so good about football anyways?! cant guys just watch innocently without busting out there wallets? gah dayum. i hate this.
grow up already people.
if your up your up
but if your down then stop
thinking you can win it all back and double or nothing is fucken stupid.
stick to cards
fuck football already
i wish norman never got introduced to football.
if only...

i dont know what to do anymore.
i love him, i dont want anything bad to happen to him.

1 comment:

jobelle asto said...

you gave up your carr babe?
serious?

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Baby Boy

"When you in love with a man, he can make you feel high. so high you just be in outer space. but a man can also make you feel low. real low. and he can keep you there. keep you down. if you let him. dont even worry about feeling used. it's just temporary everyone gets used. men use women, women use men. just face the fact that you're going to be used. but if you feel so used, you aint got nothing left... it the man aint giving you the energy you need to love his ass... even when he's acting like a bastard, you need to let it go. if you aint got nothing to give yourself, or your baby...
you wont have it to give it to him."